Past year I’ve gone trough some different emotions, I was sad, I was happy. I even was so depressed I didn’t wanted to live. Just crawl up in my bed and stay there for the rest of the day saying nothing to anyone. Ofcourse I’ve “healed” from that and I’m glad of it. I started my own business, it’s not the best job, but I can buy groceries to live. And because of my business, I started to heal from my depression. However, since I started I’m mostly inside my apartment, I don’t go outside as much as I used to go.
The truth is, I want to go outside! I want to have long walks. I want to breath. I want to see people living. I want to see the world.
In the time I was so depressed, I wanted to vanish from my family and friends. I wanted to take the plane to the other side of the world. Places like Indonesia, India, Australia. Places where no one could find me. Sometimes I still dream of that. To start a new life in places I wish to go to. Adventure, to do something I would never dare to do. Maybe to start a new hobby, learn to meditate, to have peace with myself and love myself for who I am.
I want to refind myself again and do something I always wanted to do with my life! I want new things in my life.
I just want to start living and stop myself from my boring life I have at the moment. Don’t you?
Did you ever had or have the same feelings I have? Let me know in the comments below